BloodiedTourniquet

What's the point in beauty, If no one can see through Understanding something deeper But you seem to misconstrue When will you see through the mirror Before you become consumed To see the full picture Rather than what's been entombed Stop comparing yourself To entities that don't exist Or lose what's obtainable And begin to reminisce Stop looking at the past for reference You'll be reading an old book And don't skip to the ending Because you'll never get to look Embrace what surrounds you Don't ever think twice Cherish true beauty Or it'll become your last vice

Would you have acted differently, If I had told you what was on my mind Would you have tried harder Or would I still be left behind? Im afraid of these words I want to say Afraid for them to linger in the air Of you to crush my paper heart And to do so without being aware And they say ignorance is bliss So why do I feel such regret Cuz you're always on my mind But to you Im but a silhouette What are you supposed to do When given the choice, Can't give up, yet cant let go You left me without a voice But I'll never be silenced You dont control my mind, but my heart So now I have to teach myself How to tell them

Sitting here In the silence of night Sitting here waiting For you to come hold me tight I want you to be here Show me everythings alright But no matter how long I wait You never come into sight Im thinking of the past When you were my light No matter how dark things were You always seemed to make them bright Your lingering touch Is all I feel I wake and youre not there But in my mind it seems so real Is it all illusions Or were you even there I dont know whats real anymore As reality begins to tear Where did you go When will you come back Youve been gone so long now My sanity I start to lack Footsteps off in the distan

I reach for cotton candy clouds As I escape from your reality I drift away from you And into my own mentality I drift into my unknown Maybe today Ill get lost But again Im back in your world The thin line I crossed In my world I am not judged In my world there is no sadness Eternal bliss with no worries Out of your world of madness Its only in my mind But no matter how many times I say it I never seem to believe myself For in my mind it dosent transmit In my mind I am safe Im safe from you and your threats In my world Im safe from myself And all my many regrets Its my escape when I need one My sanctuary when I need help

Memory built upon memory The only part in life we know Is what we've seen and been told But what if it were to go What if what we know What if what we hold dear Were to free fall from earth Only to dissapear What if reality was an illusion Our destination already set And in this life We'd have nothing to forget If time stood still Maybe we'd live at last Without stressing over the future And worrying about our past If our memory vanished You'd see nothing in the mirror And this would be the time When everything would be clear

You see me there Staring out the window Gun held in hand My head is soon to blow Stunned by my actions Finding the words to say Make me reconsider this Make me want to stay As you try to speak Your words fumble And all I hear Is a quiet mumble Hesitating with your presence Unsure what to do But death consumes my thoughts Forever sticking like glue You continue to stare Overcome with fear Finding the right words While I'm still here You walk to me slowly Looking in my eyes Telling me you love me But I know it's all lies You try to embrace me But I push you away I love you too But I'm not here to stay Things could've

I know that I should be over this That you could never stay Crying myself to sleep from memories Running through my head everyday I keep thinking of things I could have changed Then telling myself that its not worth it But if it never really mattered So many thoughts I wouldnt have commit Every time I think Im over you I think of your smile and get butterflies Of when I fell asleep in your arms And when we said our goodbyes I wish I could close my heart to unwanted feelings Like I close my eyes to unwanted sights But no matter how hard I try, I still feel pain I still have to make it through the long nights Your memories will

What happened I didnt hear what was said Everything plays out in slow motion As I learned that I was mislead I learned that I was betrayed My feelings, you abused My world is falling fast As I learn that I was only being used Standing still, not hearing Unsure of what to say Dont want to face reality Just want to escape, run away Still none of this has registered All the memories play out in my head As I lay in bed crying, shaking violently Thinking about every lie you ever said What happened to what you told me Ill always be here for you, Even when no one else has At any point, was this true I dont know what to feel anymo

Bringing with it silent whispers A gentle breeze passes me by It sings to me words you once said A beautiful song, a haunting lullaby It follows me, never letting me be All of your hollow promises, your lies Of a bittersweet memory, of hope And of the horrible demise I look into the purity of water Only to see your reflection I look into the safety of your eyes And all I see is your deception Your once warm hand reaches for mine Now it only sends chills down my spine My once joyous rollercoaster of happiness Is now slowing to a decline For a moment I see that sparkle in your eye And I remember who you once were Should I take

Close your eyes boy; Now listen closely I’ll tell you all you need to know If you can keep a secret I’ll never have to go Hold my hand; And follow closely I’ll lead you away from here To a far off place Our dream, we’ll persevere Now open your eyes boy; And look at your hands You hold onto my heart You can keep it forever Or break it apart